Wednesday, June 11, 2014

TASTING DEFEAT

Sheamus has been defeated and hes tasting more than the fist of his rival!!


 
I feel soo dirty!!!! Now i am drawing real life human beings!!! I wonder wath whoudl he thinks if he look at this. I hope he "likes" it and masturbate to it....

OK, stop thinking more dirty!!!! This is a gift for a friend who likes Sheamus. I never tough anythign naugthy about this guy before he told me but i had a lot of fun doing this!

Soo i been drawing again....or should i say, posting again. I really never stoped doing art. I draw a lot on the 3DS and my sketch books. I just didnt do anything worth posting at all. Soo wath happened? Well, i actually get interested in humans.

I notice i spent hours and hours and hours, literally, inside my room, drawing even in weekends at night. Theres nothing wrong with it at all, i actually love it. But also i kind of feel lonely, way way too lonely. Soo i decided to end my activitys and focus on writing, drawing on traditional media and also meet guys.

This sounds soo lame...but yhea, i felt like i was drawing the same guy, even if they characters i draw where totally different, i felt like i was drawing someone i wanted. I guess that happends with everyone who draws erotic.

Soo all this time i meet a lot of guys of all ages and styles and i leanr i am not meant to be with humans. I......really...cant understand them at all. I tough meeting guys would be normal but i am in complete oblivion about them. I have no idea how to even start talk to them:

I send them messages with a "hi, how are you?" and sometimes i send them messages triying to be original like asking them if i can draw them since they inspire me a lot. I get one reply out of ten messages.

They sometimes send me a message and ask for my wathsapp and they never talk to me ever again. I say "hello" and i get a "hello" back from them, i ask them stuff of theyr job or theyr home or hobys and they never talk to me anymore. Sometimes they block me as well. I even tried to date guys that i dont like physically (didnt wanted to be superficial) and i got just a big lack of interest from both sides.

One of them wanted to meet me soo we meet and he arrived with all his friends and made me feel terrible awkard. Some other one stoped talking to me in the moment i ask a date.The wolf guy i liked soo much stoped talking to me since i stoped sending him porn. I send them a lot of messages and i tire them, then i stop sending messages and they forget all about me.

I always tough the "dont worry, just be yourself" trick was the rigth answear but is not, being myself dosnt help me at all not a little bit.

The real answear to get love is actually being hunky, fit, handsome and sexy.

In a few words; i am extremelly tired to try to pick theyr attention dancing around and jumping like an idiot. Theres something missing my logic, i know. But to be honest i dont give a damn anymore.

I dont write this to get any sympathetic reaction, i just wanted to write it soo i dont forget it and to leet you peopel know that i am going to be back at posting artwork in regular basis again (as long as my OLD PC let me)!!!!

8 comments:

Leon Yabuki said...

Hey! :O
No es necesario que llegues al punto de "cansarte" completamente de "buscar". :)
Lamentablemente te cruzaste con gente extraña, "idiota"...y bueno, muchas otras que no tenían interés en vos v.vU
Pero al final del día, siempre es mejor que seas vos mismo. Quizás si se trata de sexo casual se priorise lo fisico....es probable. Pero en el fondo todos somos seres humanos, y la afinidad para construir algo mas serio casi siempre pasa por el lado de ser sincero con uno mismo y con los demas.
Me parece que si por estas malas experiencias te sentis frustrado, es normal. :) Solo que, no dejes de ser vos mismo, nunca :D Eventualmente te vas a cruzar con alguien que valga la pena. En serio que si! Ya se que suena totalmente conformista y hasta trillado...pero es así. :3
Solo quería compartirte lo que me pareció y en base a mi experiencia... ^^U No lo tomes como soberbia ni mucho menos.
Te mando un abrazo moi moi grande :)

DEVILMAN said...

Si suena trillado o0o!!
Hola Yabuki tanto tiempo sin verte :D!!
Pues me resulta dificil creer que algun dia me "cruzare", como que ya han pasado muchos años y no a habido anda de cruza con alguien que valga la pena a mi forma de ser y si que me e topado con gente que me encanta pero me ignoran al completo.
Comprendo tu lógica pero solo me es difícil de creer que no ahí mas que hacer mas que ser uno mismo. Igual estoy muy agotado de momento u.u
El problema es que la apariencia no solo importa para el sexo casual, también para construir algo serio como ices, ya que si no llamas su atención, simplemente ni se interesan en tu ser :U
Almenos tratare de mejorarme a partir de ahora, no se si para atraer la atención de los palurdos esos pero si almenos para agradarme a mi mismo un poco xD
Gracias por el abrazo, igualmente :D

Javier Alejandro said...

I'm just glad you are posting artwork again :D

And guys? whatever with that, you think women are complicated? lol. Meet a homo HOMO sapiens :P

DEVILMAN said...

Thanks Javy xDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yus i always tough....men where simple but we are in fact terrible intrincate <_<

Andrew Cogburn said...

Eh who needs men. They're awful people, if they can't appreciate awesome artists like you then to hell with them.

DEVILMAN said...

Lmao thanks xDDDD
Being artisty dosnt help at all. Some years ago i used to be open about it with some of them and i really freaked them out.

Charles said...

Debo decir que me encantan tus dibujos jejeje :P, y pues que mal que a pesar de todo ese esfuerzo no encontraras a nadie que realmente se interese, es muy dificil hacerlo, y mas por que en este mundo abunda la gente superficial y mala onda, sobre todo aqui en Mexico hay muuuucha gente asi, y si les hablas piensan que eres raro y por eso muchos se alejan :/, pero por ahi dicen que cosas buenas pasan para aquellos que saben esperar ;)

DEVILMAN said...

Hola Charles misterioso xD
Muchas gracias por gustar de mis dibujos, significa mucho para mi enserio, mas ahora...
Pues si el que sabe esperar le pasan cosas buenas, espero que eso sea cierto y no el que espera se queda esperando eternamente u.u