VON LYCAON

 As some of you may know (i doubt it....but i am hopefull someone read my past entrys) i have a blog dedicated to my action figures collection that is somehow more active than this place (i am sorry) and i use to have both sides of my life independent but just recently a friend of mine got a figure that arrived to my home since he wasnt able to recive it thanks to his job and given how rare this figure is i ended taking pictures and review it like some kind of "guest review" but given the nature of the figure, i cant review it on my other blog...

This is a NSFW figure, an erotic male nude, a kind of figure i always wanted to collect but now that this figures are real, reality show me i cant afford them, soo i take a chance to have one of them in my hands for a few days and given the info about this figures is extremelly rare - for some reason people buy them an hide them rigth away in shame - i think it was worth the trouble put in here as much information about this particular figure for people who may be interested on it.

The subject here is Von Lycaon, a character from the game Zenless Zone Zero - ZZZ - an urban RPG mixed with gatcha, hack and slash and visual novel that has build a pretty awesome world around it that manages to be very futuristic and retro at the same time. The battle system is fun and the writing and characters very amusing and easy to care and Von Lycaon is probablly the most popular from the male cast.

A buttler and gentleman from Victoria Housekeeping, this werewolf have a deep and sexy voice as well as perfect maners, big muscles and a manly aura that makes you feel safe al the time soo given how easy is to crush on him, is no wonder the NSFW studios started working on him pretty fast and Lingze Studio is the first one to release him.

This Lycaon is huge...like half a head taller than my Tunshi Haohmaru and IconiQ Ryu...a head bigger than Sideshow or Hot Toys figures but given the nature of the figure, the bigger the better. He cant stand on his own of course but comes with a wide and pretty heavy base tough i think its shafe standing on it, nly one of his feet have a peg to fit on a single hole on the base soo he is basically stansing on asingle leg.

The material is strong and the metalic peg runs very deep on his leg but still, i would feel much better if they give him a peg to his other leg too. But once standing he stays that way perfectly. 

This guy is made of resin, soo he is very very heavy and is not articulated, tough his head, tail and arms can be removed for storage porpuse. They have a magnet inside soo not only they fit perfectly to the torso, but its pretty tough and tricky remove them given the power of the magnet, specially with such spiky sculpt.

The sculpt is fantastic, with the spiky hair in the back and the hair coming out from his cute ears, the ruffled heair on the front and the straps around his gace, his snout its a little bit small maybe but thisis extremelly accurate to the game design and given this is anime based, he have no texture at all to give him a clean look.

The musculature in both the front and the back is very impresive, with round and perfect pecs, abs and a sexy structure on his wide back, theres strands of spiky hair arpund the abs and around his biceps and his legs are impresive but not as much as his amazing round bubble but.

The tail gets in the way to enjot the butt of course, but its a really big and heavy piece mized with hair and leather straps that have a long peg that fits on a hole on top of his butt. The tail feels kind aunestable tough since its such a heavy section and is a little wobbly but it stays in place perfectly. Tough is much better to remove it before moving the figure around.

The mechanical legs have a magnifiscent sculpt in both the front and back, with a design similar of that of Metal Gear Rising´s Raiden and is very easy to keep looking at theyr cool machinery design but is a little difficult to focus on it with Lycaon´s nude and muscly body on top.

Lingze Studio gives him a pretty cute, elegant and sexy bush of hair in front that almost looks like a leaf. I am guessing this is accurate for a creature like him and helps to display him in a very erotic way without being pornographic. Remove this piece is pretty tricky since the magnet is strong and the bush of hair is not that big.

This peice can be swaped for a flacid male organ with testicles and pubid hair on top. The penis is thick and extremelly cute and sexy and the pubic hair helps a lot. While the whole piece is painted in plain white (just like the bush of hair), the glans is soft pink with a wash of dark and a weet look. Very realistic and inviting.

The third piece consist on an erect organ, much bigger and exciting that the last one. This time is easyer to look at his testicles and the realistic wrinkled texture on them and the glans have the pink color with a dark wash and a wet effect that looks really delicious.

The last option to display is a canin organ. I am not an expert in this particular anatomy but this is deffinetly not my favorite either. The shape is....inhuman and is much bigger and the paint is red this time. It have more vains but that mixed with the red color makes it looks a little painfull, tough it looks strangelly natural despite being surrounded by only white.

I was soo excited about the penis part i skip the paint of the figure itself. While Lycaon is completelly white he have a soft brush of grey around every muscles soo he looks nicelly shaded and every muscle shape stands out perfectly (nipples included). The leather straps around his face, chest and arms as well as tail have a dark grey wash to gives them the look of real leather and the tip of his ears and hair have a black gradient as well.

The mouth have a black line and the eye have a beautifully painted and detailed red pupil. The work on his eye is really amazing. And of course, the paint on his mechanical legs is pretty neat too, with gun metal black, a wash of grey to make them looks realistic and some golden and blue details, they looks metalic and elegant, just like Lycaon.

Aside of the extra penises options, he also comes with a golden watch. The watch fits perfectly on his claws and the cord flows nicelly around his hand but the best part is how the numbers and other details can be seen at the other side.

The base is really heavy and have a wood painted that looks very realistic and a pretty interesting and elegant carving on it but the biggest item here is the couch....that coush is EXTREMELLY HEAVY, thick resin, and it rest on the base with no protection at all. The design is full of luxury and while its completelly white it also have golden legs and other golden details, pretty elegant but pretty simple if you ask me.

This piece is pretty much half of the weigth fo the entire figure and mades me wonder if it was necesary to add this couch. They could added a pile of books or something more ligth weigth but i guess they could not find something fancy enough to give an air of elegance to the display.

Lastly, the figures comes with a metalic foul card with an image of the figure and the number in the production. This is figure 50 but i have no idea how big was the production but i doubt is big.

This figure is very high quality and while i do love Von Lycaon on the game, the figure itself makes justice of the character and is really sexy and tempting. While i dislike the animal parts, the erected and flacid penis are just beyond perfect and the hair covering is also a great idea for display in a very tastefull way.

While this figure was in my hands for only a week, it made me wish i was able to collect this kind of sculotures: Chris, Ryu, Iskander, Archer, Lancer, Guts, soo many men i didnt get and i will probablly never get...

The figure also comes with an extra dressed body with arms for completelly safe display, but that side of the review is in [fight and fear] PLASTIC for a complete view of this figure.

PAWERCON

 Last year i made entrys about the Barapalooza convention in my country, an event that was a dream for soo long and i kinda complaigned it had too much furry on it. Well, i fianlly went to a totally furry event called Pawercon in mi city. I think this is the second time this event take place and it deffinetly was much more expensive than Barapalooza and also had a lot visitors and unlike other events, here you had those visitors shape shifting with fursuits as one of the biggest atraction of the event.

Furrys are such interesting creatures....they are soo dual, like two extremes crashing together. They are cute and adorable and very friendly but they do have a dark side (tough i didnt see it here), they are like Batman and Bruce Wayne or Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde but much more horny. But that bad reputation they have and the way people see them somehow makes them closer, like a cluster, a pretty tight fandom that is as close as familly.

Honestly i dont know how i feel myself about furry but i always liked to see them at a certain distance because some of them looks trully happy with themselves and i kind of envy them. And given how close they are, each time they got an event like Pawercon it feels like a big deal. I still like bara more than furry but latelly i been looking furry more closely and for now it seems i even started a furry merch collection.

The very first thing i see was this cute hand made Godzilla pixeled art pieces made by DHAR RAPTOR that i first was planing be a gift for someone but i will keep them for myself.

The i got an artowkr of Wendell as well as a couple of stickers as gift from BENNY CARTOONIST i really love his lineart and the vibracy of his color, his style is just livelly and cool.

This was the thrid time i saw BESTIA PURPURA and i got a Hellboy sketch from him as well as some stickers. I almost collected all his stickers tough i really want to commision him at some point.

A couple of steamy poscards, a keychain and stickers from EL AFTON mostly focused on Gohin. His art style is soo cool and fluid, the traditional art looks really suits his gallery.

LIGONI EXE art style is soo perfectly furry and soo refined! And he had soo much awesome stuff from dakumakuras to pins and awesome standees, i had to control myself and keep my wallte in check soo gt stickers and a William keycahin as well as Swat Katz pins. I love those pins!!! I didnt expect to find Swat Katz merch!!!

I was also in love of the keychains DAKOTA YAGAMI had. Her art is really amazing, but she also had plush accesorys and she gives me stickers of the keychains art i got. I had to buy extra keychains soo i can use them safelly.

AMON SYD is one of the artists i admire soo much rescently ebcause his art skills are beyond most artists around and he also have great taste soo i got two prints of his art, tough i really should buy more because the quality is his prints is hard to belive.

I also got OREN JUICE doujin as well as a Day of the Dead keychain. I actually got a pillow from Oren last year soo i am very interested on start collecting his stuff.

Tough not furry, the only bara product i got was LAANCER artbook that included postcards, stickers and also is own signature and a message from him.

One of my favorite items i got was this Gohin shirt made by SILLY BUG !!! Tough it was a gift from a friend, i used it the second day of the con and everyone loved it!

One of my main interest in this convention was to make a standee collection. I love standees and ALVARODOG had a Ben Bigger moving standee that fits perfectly for the ZZZ collection and is a lot of fun to play with and i also got a Canuto pin.

KIBA also helped me with my standee collection witha sexy tiger one tough he also had a giant WIlliam mouse pad that tempted me but my budget was too tigth.

Last time at Barapalooza i saw a stande of LOWENMOND character Tiago i really wanted but my budget didnt let me get it, but now its finally in my hands!!!

One of the artists i also meet at Batapalooza lasy tear was PUMPKING WOLF and while i was only able to buy small prints from him, this time i got an standee of his character.

I also meet, after many years since Deviant Art days, MAGOLOBO and i got s standee of his wrestler lion character tough i also wish i got the posters he made about him.

Next event will be Barapalooza but given how muhc money i spent in here i dont think my loot will be as big as before.

THE HUSBANDO SYNDROME

 I dont remember where or when i read it or hear it, but some time ago i hear someone says the "platonic" love was the best mode of love and the most pure and fullfilling because it didnt deal with expectations or dissapointment. Even in many cultures of the past it was seen as something worth porsuing (like in ancient Greece or Japan) and i really agree with it!! But at the same time the more times goes by, the most difficult it gets.

I think i have the Husbando Syndome or the Admirer Syndrome, i dont know how to call it but both are the same thing but from the different side of the coin. Each time i see a man i like i pretty much run at the other side pretty fast, as far away as i can but enough to have a good view of him, then i look at him, examin him, from the safety of the shadows, i obsses with him and idealize him a lot until he somehow turns into a kind of fiction man with a 3D skin on him.

This has happen to me over the years many times and at first i didnt even notice. I always loved my 2D husbandos since i was a teen and at times those characters are my confort and let me survive harships, but i also notice real men i like are in the same pedestal for me. I really have no idea ho to gte close or wath to do with them once i find them, that the sad truth.

Another truth is how a few times in the past i did get close to know more about them and after a few days or even hours, i end up hugelly dissapointed because they are usually assholes, toxic, stupid or plain mean or boring and uninteresting in the best case, soo i thik i am also kind of afraid to get close to them and see the magic dissapeare or worst yet....much worse yet.....see the magic exist but not being good enough for me.

The more older i get the more confortable i feel with this Husbando Syndrome but my frustration gres bigger and bigger. Sometimes....yhea, its soo difficult, soo difficult they are nothing but an image, and ideal or something unreachable, sometimes we share a couple of messages and i end saying "dont worry, i am just an admirer from a far away land" because i know nothing will happen.

It soo odd to be in peace with it and very confortable and yet ugelly frustrated like a bomb getting hoter and hoter. I just wonder if this will bring me more troubles later in my life.

I HATE THE INTERNET

 

Yep, i said it and i think thats another reason why i dont upload art anymore, because my dislike for the internet is pretty high.

I remember the begining of the century, the childhood of the internet literally, starting up the PC was expecting a lot of fun and excitment, aside of watching low quality videos or listen to music in Winamp or play extremelly primitive games, internet was an amazing gateaway to meet people from the other side of the world. Meeting new people was exciting because the only population on it was the nerds, lonely people eager to make new friends.

We find out elements that joins us, tastes in music, hobbys, movies, we put everything we love in front to be known by others and know others as well. I think is not necesary to say how internet is now, a gateaway to complaign and discuss to strangers, insult them and cancel them, something pretty easy to do but eventually leave us dry of any interest.

And while i meet some amazing people thanks to the internet, i am extremelly happy i had a childhood offline and with no PC at all, completelly focused in real world and those are the happyest memories i have of my entire life. Somehow i feel like i was wiser back then, more focused and with better prioritys.

Backn in the 2000s i remember my mother once told me "are you going to stay in front of the PC all your life saving pictures??", i didnt say anything but i tough "yes, why not?", but now, all the places i used to visit dont exist no more or are completelly empty. Places like DeviantART are shamefull and not usefull anymore while social media like Twitter or Facebook are extremelly censored and dosnt let you write certain words of show certain topics.

Then i was kicked out by Tumblr and later on, NewTumbl.....to be honest, i feel like i have no place on the internet anymore. I got Pixiv for my art but thats quiet a cold place and i have this place as well, wich is completelly empty and lonely soo while i have a place for my art i dont have too much of a palace i can call home in the internet or a place to draw my interest and atention.

Curate our own experience on the internet is trickyer than it sounds, specially in a space full of ADs, AI slops and gramathical limitations. Blusky is a nice iption but still, i dont feel very excited to start over in a brand new place and - oddly enough - seen the same people as always there.

I know it sounds awfull and this whole entry sounds like the complaing of a lonely old man but maybe thats wath i am, and that depress me because i am too young for that!!! I need to surf the internet like i used to and find my own way to a corner i dont feel like i am talking to a wall in a giant empty room but is much trickyer than it sounds.

SHIBE

 I think is time to give some life to this place. I know i promise to not post anything else thats not art related, but this has been relevant for my life like no other thing and i really want to keep this place up as a  personal corner for mine.

Some years ago i was at peace with my condition of being alone, i was used to it and i somehow find acceptance with it, i felt confortable but then life give me the most wonderfull gift i could expect: a SHIBE and i am not talking of an actual dog in here but a man who loved me the most. I didnt knew how to get all that love at first but i tough to myself "maybe my happynes is rigth here? Maybe this is once in a life time chance?" soo i decided to give it a try and i found happynes in the happynes on someone else.

A totally new experience to me that i learn to embrace and in exchangue it gives me more memories and events in four 4 years than the ones i experienced in 15 years. Sadly, my secluded way of life i build myself upon me wasnt big enough to contain his gigantic heart soo now i am alone again but extremelly lucky to still have him on my life.

A few days ago i was playing one of the games we used to play together and it felt like it was 2021-2023 again. I know those pandemic years were hellish for a lot of people and many lost everything there, but for me i was actually happy, playing games by night with him at times, chating constantly, going to the theather or eating good food the weekends with him, visiting him to watch anime together or play videogames at night, being able to talk with him about things i dont usually talk with other people.

I remember he telling me "you dont aspire to much more?" and honestly, it was a little difficult for me do it because i was actually happy the way it was tough i always seen us together in my future. And i hate that from happynes....you dont notice it until its over.

He expanded my gamer experience by making me play games i had a lot of fun with and he even bough FF XVI to play it at the same time as me soo we could chat about him. I mean, i remember how much i beg people to get Soul Calibur IV in 2018 and how all my friends didnt give a shit, but he bought, played and finished FF XVI just for me and he was pretty much the only person i could talk about that game. I never meet someone who do that with me and i know i will never meet someone like that ever again, he had the best of the best intentions towards me and his love was soo genuin, i am the luckyest in the world to spent the time i had with him!!

For 35 years Valentine Day means nothing to me until he arrives and now this my first Valentine Day alone again and while i am actually depressed and - maybe worst - very nostalgic about it, my time with him made me feel like my days before he arrives were a waste but i dont want to feel like that anymore, i want to change things up and made him happy again.

Thats part of the reason why didnt upload more art here in the last year, i was busy being happy, but as stupid and ridiculos as it sounds, i still dont give up on art and i want to get in track again little by little, i also want to write storys and i will try to write as much as i can in here because i dont want this palce to feel like a hollow cementery of my past life, like 99% of the blogs i link with.

I will continue talking about him in here because is imposible not to do it since his influence in my life has been great in the last years but i will try to post more instronspection about myself as well and more art i hope!!